You Should See Me

You gave me a child With a heart too big More love than she knows Where to put it Her bed is a country Of soft little things I climb just to reach her Hang over the edge I move what's in the way To find her hand She pulls me closer Half asleep You should see her You should really see her You should see her You should really see her Three gifts Still here You gave me a boy With a world inside He answers my questions From somewhere else Half a sentence Something unfinished Still connecting In his head He's late Until he's not Then everything clicks All at once I stand at the door And guard the time Because I know that place Too well You should see him You should really see him You should see him You should really see him Three gifts Still here Then I went down Slow at first Still thinking I had control Until the night I folded in Curled up small And hit the floor I saw a line Inside myself And knew If I crossed it Something ends I stopped wanting I stopped asking I said I'm done Three gifts That stayed Three gifts No one could take Later Driving home I saw them both In the mirror Talking Quiet Like the world Was still whole And something heavy Fell away Without a sound That's when I saw it Clear at last What broke me open Gave something back Not another person Not a new start Just me Standing there In the glass It took being torn Down to the bone To look at myself The way I look at them Three gifts That stayed Three gifts Still here You should see me You should really see me You can lose the house You can lose the name You can lose the life You thought you'd save You should see me You should really see me Three gifts